Shut Down
Terminated
Melissa (:

melissahiangshuwen!!
31august
ex- YTzen!! :D
YJCian!
volleyballer!! :D
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PW is finally officially over! after much struggling with the gpp, thn wr thn op, its finally done! cant imagine how i managed to go through all those without any internal injuries. lol. i hope my hard work will pay off and it will reward all my group members with an A. :D but i kind of pity the other groups. because of teachers' negligence, they may not get the desirable results. sigh. i dont think we can celebrate the joy together when we get our results next year. :/


2 more days later i will know whether i will spend 1 more year in jc or another 2 more miserable years. i seriously pray that it will come out as expected, and not the opposite. things are not going well this year already, cant imagine how it will be next year if i ever retain. :x


tmr my mother is bringing us on an outing :D she say its a tortoise island. :D so exciting! first ever outing with my family! cant wait to see the tortoises and relax myself, finally.


why arent things like the way it is last time? why is it so hard for me to accept things? why cant i just turn a blind eye to certain things? why cant i control my temper?!?! why is it so hard to communicate with you?! why!!! can you try to understand how i feel?? can you not look for me when you feel like and ignore me when you feel like also!!! do you know how unhappy i am!! do you know how neglected i feel!! do you know how extra i feel all the time!!! do you?!? i feel like i am extra. you got alot of friends and you dont even need me to be around. right?


I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter


sometimes i really hope i can just vanish